Abortion: God’s Surprising Viewpoints
(Blog 0014 AndrewHadden.com)
Abortion is a topic I want to approach very carefully. I could do what many do, and quote the scriptures many regard as key applicable scriptures on the topic, and apply the standard interpretations most scholars in my circles, evangelical circles, apply. I could defer to people with doctorates. However, I learned long ago that having a doctorate does not make you right. For instance, the doctors of the law of God, the Pharisees, got a lot of things wrong about how to interpret scripture, and what to expect, when Christ came the first time. They missed the Messiah fulfilling scripture all around them. And today, opinions on how scripture should be translated, interpreted, and applied, vary a lot among people with doctorates. And if these people disagree, it is evidence that their doctorates do not serve as evidence that a doctorate makes you right. In scripture, at the time of Christ, it was the people praying much and listening to God that got it right. That leaves hope for me.
And then there was Christ, demonstrating the heart of God in the circumstances of people’s failings, while still not compromising the truth of God’s word. That would include the woman at the well, in a city of people rejected by the Jews because of their mixed ancestry. Christ’s response to her would have been totally rejected by the Pharisees, but it won a city to God. And he revealed himself to her, who he really was, the Messiah, more plainly than to anyone else in scripture up to that point. And then there was his response to the woman taken in adultery. He did not rush to judgment, but showed mercy. But he also did not endorse sin. He was also constrained by Roman law with which the Pharisees wanted to ensnare him.
One must be careful to represent the heart of God in the rules he makes, and how he applies them, with mercy. And the Jews, and the Bible, tended to list general rules, without the exceptions, when everyone knew there were exceptions. Some have been called to represent the wounded heart of God in how his people have treated him. One was Hosea, who was a prophet in the Bible, a righteous man, whom God called to go marry a wayward prostitute, who continued to be wayward. He wanted somebody to know how he felt, and be able to express it to the people. His people were worshiping other gods and doing detestable sexual acts in the woods in doing so, when they had pledged to be his alone. And they were sacrificing their children to those gods. Another was Ezekiel, whom God used to represent his heart in his temple having to be destroyed in judgment, when he had once delighted in it. God took his wife, the delight of his eyes, to illustrate his pain to his people at the coming judgment for their sins, even in his temple, such that he was going to destroy his temple.
I know what it is like to have God ask you to express his pain to his people over their sin. I lived great pain for many years over a former wife. Once, when I poured out my pain to God over her sins against me, God said she was like his Bride, the Church, and asked me to tell of his pain. I was shocked at the pain of God over his people. I took it as a very solemn responsibility. Eventually, God called me “Hosea,” acknowledging the pain of my life in representing him and his pain, and of my pain, in relation to my former bride and how she treated me.
But I knew to be very cautious in wondering about the pain of God over abortion. When he finally expressed it to me, I was shocked. His deepest pain was not over people disobeying him and harming the most innocent of human life, but of course that was much of it. His greatest pain was that he saw what they did as slaying HIS children. Imagine your heart as you sit on your front porch watching your children play, and you watch someone come up and slay one of your precious children and leave them dead at your feet. He was a father grieving over the greatest loss and outrage he could possibly have. How could God consider our children, his children? He does in scripture (Ezekiel 16:20-21). He gives them to us and still considers them his too. And there is a scripture that says, “When my father and my mother forsake me, Then the LORD will take care of me” (Psalms 27:10 NKJV). There are also many scriptures talking of God’s care for the defenseless including the widow and the fatherless – orphans. So, when we abandon and reject our children, even in our hearts, God considers them even more his to care for.
But I know of this issue from a viewpoint most would not expect. My wife is a rape victim. I also was raped, as a child. I could feel only some of the pain of it. My wife could go through the full range of it, and it happened to her many times. And she had multiple pregnancies from many rapes she never even knew happened, until years later, when it was safe enough for the memories to finally surface. And abortions were forced on her many times, to cover the crimes, sins, of the rapists, the perpetrators. Some were in her own household, so it was also incest, but incest as rape. She has written her story in a book. I don’t need to intrude, here, on her right to tell her story, but I must tell some, with her permission.
Her story also involved a satanic cult, operating in secret in a large church, as well as the woods, and expertly using psychological and demonic methods to have girls go through these things and not discover they had been through it for many years. I have a blog explaining those methods on my andrewhadden.org site, “Ritual Abuse and Mind Control.” The perpetrators also did the abortions, to keep their crimes secret. But she eventually recognized that she had plenty of evidence of what had been done to her – including uncontrollable bleeding at intervals (from abortions), unexplained abdominal weight gain, stretch marks, much morning sickness for years as a young teen, and what was obviously a spontaneous miscarriage. And she eventually had many of the memories of the rapes, and gang rapes, and abortions done with a knife in rituals, and other settings, come to conscious awareness over time. All the while, she had seen herself as shy or withdrawn, and unhappy, but a young girl that was in no way sexually active, as far as she knew.
Let me also explain that just because those memories were initially suppressed does not mean she did not suffer when they did come to conscious awareness. Suppressed traumatic memories are not stored the same as normal memories, and research has shown they are not even stored in the same area of the brain. And they do not diminish over time. They stay as fresh and raw as when they first happened, until they come to conscious awareness and are processed. She did not have more gentle, muted, memories come to conscious awareness, dulled by the length of time since they happened. They came to her, vivid and raw, like she was going through them at that moment, or like they had just happened, and she was dealing with the immediate aftermath of them. I comforted her as she screamed from being gang raped by secret satanists in an occult ritual setting. I married her, seeing her value, and very much in love with her, after walking with her through much of her initial traumatic memories, and having been close friends for some time.
But there was other pain in these memories. When my wife and I married, God told us both, “No children.” We thought that was so that we could focus on ministry, and accepted it. God left it that way for six years. In that time, my wife suffered emotionally as friends had children, because she could not help wanting children. God had his reasons, but she suffered emotionally at being denied children and thinking it was permanent. Then, when each forced early-term abortion came to conscious awareness, and a child was not only taken from her body by crude abortions, but also sacrificed in occult rituals, she suffered again. She mourned the child she wanted and never even knew she had, as well as the fate of that child. But God comforted her by telling her that that aborted child was being raised in Heaven, and she would see them one day.
But eventually, God spoke of what had been taken from those children, her forcefully aborted children. God mentioned: “. . . what they survived, the cruelty of it all, the extinguishment of such young life. They suffered the theft of it all, all. Nothing to enjoy, nothing to report, no accomplishments, yet. They have eternity now . . ..” God sees abortion as a theft of huge proportions, taking a lifetime from someone, and denying them the experiences and accomplishments in this life they could have had.
So, when God had me warn certain politicians that have long supported abortion, in the extreme, that judgment for supporting abortion would be the same as judgment for murder, life for life, I felt I knew God’s position. But I did not. I assumed that God had no exceptions. But eventually, I asked God if he had any exceptions, to be sure. His answer was this:
Rape. [God said it again when I wanted to be sure.] I won’t allow it, for a rapist to take so much from a woman, on top of what else he did. ‘The sins of the fathers . . .’ [in reference to the sins of the fathers resting upon the children and the children’s children (Exodus 34:7)]. In this case it should rest upon the child. I can take them up here, [to heaven] as I do for many. They need not suffer, but neither should the mother. There is a reason many believe in this exception. I am behind it.
Then I wondered about another exception that people push, when the pregnancy threatens the life of the mother. But I know some could really push that to the slightest increased risk to the mother, and any pregnancy could be seen as doing that. Then I heard God say,
I don’t allow it. Self-defense – same standard. Is someone deliberately intending serious harm? No. You can’t kill someone for unintentionally putting you at increased risk. Neither should you be able to kill a baby, the most innocent of human life. Tell them that. That’s where you stand.
Much later, I thought of those that support abortion in the case of incest. Having ministered to incest victims, including my wife, I have the perspective that most incest is really rape as well. That tends to be how such behavior begins, and it establishes control of the victim that can extend for many years, because they will, as a young child, dissociate and have dissociative amnesia about all rapes by a family member. Or they will, as soon as any activity trends toward rape/incest, switch into another child identity within them that holds those memories. That can be a spontaneous survival mechanism for a child. Those knowing how to create other identities, and control switching to other identities, can then keep knowledge of the incest from the victim for many years, perhaps a lifetime. My wife was totally a victim, unknowing for many years what had gone on within her family of origin. What happened to her was serial rape in the extreme, by occult practitioners who were well versed in forcing their victims to suppress all memories of the rapes.
Then there are incest cases where a person has the memories, but was in no way a consenting adult to incest. They were terrified and totally under the power of the parent or caregiver or older trusted family member breaching their trust. The bigger the breach of trust, the bigger the trauma felt by the victim. Recognizing these factors is how we got statutory rape laws. In considering the law, all these circumstances around what is rape and what is incest but not rape need to be considered. If incest is truly consensual, which is likely very rare, it would appear that would not come under God’s listed exception.
I had determined that I would never vote for a politician that supported abortion, outside of God’s exception for rape, lest I be guilty in God’s eyes for murder. But another question arose when I realized I might be faced with an election where if I do not vote for the candidate that is the lesser of two evils, then the more evil candidate would win, and the more murderous position would be supported, and likely become law. I am still seeking God’s will on that.
I will add that my wife and I prayed about including so much of her story here. Then God said we could speak to “millions” by doing so, and to include it. There is a lot of heartache all around to do with abortion, but we have a God that understands pain, and forgives those that sincerely repent and ask.